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Comfort as Idolatry

Posted on May 29, 2007July 8, 2025

I’m back from our church retreat. It ended up being a good time, relaxing although not granting much sleep.

We spent the weekend examining our conceptions of God. This of course is a very broad topic, but we tried to understand our default assumptions about God and explore the implications thereof as well as push ourselves to expand our views on God. Since all of our language for God is metaphor anyway, to claim full knowledge of God or to even limit our naming of God to one or two terms leads to conceptual idolatry. So while we as finite beings can never capture an infinite God, it helps to be willing to see that God is bigger than the box we usually stick him into.

We employed a number of activities to help us with this process. One activity was to read selections from books that discuss how we conceive of God or that present a picture of God. One of the selections I read was from Donald Miller’s Blue Like Jazz. In it he complains about a writer who conceives of spirituality in trendy ways (assuming that if it is trendy it is therefore wrong). He accuses those who wish to explore new expressions of spirituality of just desiring comfort. He writes, “your problem is not that God is not fulfilling, your problem is that you are spoiled – God is not here to worship me, to mold Himself into something that will help me fulfill my level of comfort.”

I see the truth in his words, but also cannot fully accept them. It is easy to just create God in our image. God is not us or a pet we can train. But to condemn an exploration of truth just because it might be trendy and comfortable doesn’t seem right either. Too often I see comfort used as the excuse for not letting God out of the box. I hear people say that they intellectually understand that the one or two terms they use for God (Father, Lord) are limiting and tend towards conceptual idolatry, but that they are comfortable with those names for God. It isn’t easy for them to use more expansive and inclusive language for God. So because they don’t want to be uncomfortable and think about their theology as they pray, they won’t let God out of the box they have created for him. Comfort then becomes the idol.

I think that most of us tried to smash those idols and explore a bigger picture of God this past weekend. We had some good conversations especially regarding how our conception of God influences our spiritual practices. I’ll try to post about some of those in the next few days.

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Retreat

Posted on May 25, 2007July 8, 2025

Spiritual retreat – the idea is to take time to reflect, get away, and focus on God. It should be a time of refreshment and growth. At least that’s the idea. It’s harder when you are leading these things and going crazy trying to get all the last minute details together.

Anyway, we are taking our church on a spiritual formation retreat this weekend. Our focus is our conceptions of God – reflecting on how we talk about and picture God, how that affects our relationship with God and others, how we can grow in our understanding of God, and how we can expand our ability to see God working in the world.

It should be a good time (if I can manage to get everything together for it). There’s been too much on my mind stressing me out so I’ve not planned ahead for this weekend like I should have. So I’ll be off retreating for the weekend. Hopefully it will actually be a retreat.

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Lost and Confused

Posted on May 24, 2007July 8, 2025

Okay, after all my speculation recently I feel like I need to comment on last night’s finale. It was certainly the game changer that they had told us it would be, but I found it to be really depressing.

I know there is a lot of speculation as to whether Jack was really having a flashforward or when it was taking place. The plane crash occurred in September 2004 and they have only been on the Island for a little over 3 months. In the flashforwards, Jack speaks of his dad being alive (we thought he died before the plane crash), but he also uses a 2006 Razr phone, Kate drives a 2006 Volvo, and the newspaper on the plane was the April 5, 2007 LA Times. So at least those two make it off the island and it ruins Jack’s life. In some Shangra-La/Star Trek 7 Nexus type plot line Jack is desperate to get back to the island. Is this an alternate timeline, one of many possible futures, or what will really happen to the characters? The episode was called “Through the Looking Glass,” is this a mirror universe or does time run backwards on the Island like it did in Alice in Wonderland?

I found the episode depressing. So far the show has focused a lot on redemption. The characters face and overcome their sins. They fix their issues and come to terms with their past. The Island has been a place of physical and spiritual healing for most of the characters. But this flashforward highlights the opposite. Off the Island, Jack slips into drugs and alcohol and comes to the brink of suicide. He studies maps and flies in hopes that he will crash again. It is just such a depressing view of the future (and who was in the coffin???).

Anyway there are three more seasons to fill before we get the final answers, so what we think we know now might change. And of course the finale brought up a number of other questions – who is Naomi working for? What is this temple the others are heading for? So here’s to WAITING until next February for the next chapter in the story.

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Running the Numbers

Posted on May 23, 2007July 8, 2025

I recently came across an amazing art collection that takes a hard look at our consumption. Chris Jordan Photography is a must see site – go there right now. He has posted a few of his photographic series there. One is a haunting look at post-Katrina New Orleans. Another is entitled “Intolerable Beauty: A Portrait in American Mass Consumption” and the newest one is “Running the Numbers: An American Self-portrait.” This last one is the most amazing and disturbing. He writes –

This new series looks at contemporary American culture through the austere lens of statistics. Each image portrays a specific quantity of something: fifteen million sheets of office paper (five minutes of paper use); 106,000 aluminum cans (thirty seconds of can consumption) and so on. My hope is that images representing these quantities might have a different effect than the raw numbers alone, such as we find daily in articles and books. Statistics can feel abstract and anesthetizing, making it difficult to connect with and make meaning of 3.6 million SUV sales in one year, for example, or 2.3 million Americans in prison, or 426,000 cell phones retired every day. This project visually examines these vast and bizarre measures of our society, in large intricately detailed prints assembled from thousands of smaller photographs.

The art is stunning and the numbers are scary. It truly is a portrait of our consumption and waste. Hopefully a visual image of the aftereffects of our actions will cause us to stop and think every now and then. Here are a few of the images. They are hard to get the sense of in the small jpeg forms. On the site you can see the full image as well as partial and actual size zooms.

Plastic Bottles – Depicts two million plastic beverage bottles, the number used in the US every five minutes.(zoomed)

Cell Phones –
Depicts 426,000 cell phones, equal to the number of cell phones retired in the US every day. (zoomed)

Plastic Bags – Depicts 60,000 plastic bags, the number used in the US every five seconds.

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Engaging in Dialogue?

Posted on May 22, 2007July 8, 2025

Mike has been spending a lot of time recently responding to the “Ask a Christian Pastor” series over at the Friendly Atheist blog. (go here for links to his responses). He addressed questions on biblical interpretation, hell, and why he’s a Christian among other things. It has of course sparked some lively debate.

So if your interested in an emerging pastor’s response to atheist’s questions, go check it out. I personally don’t have the patience for that sort of thing. While there are a majority of people interacting with those questions that are truly thoughtful and open-minded people, there is the vocal minority that drive me nuts. Its the same reason why I avoid most Christian message boards these days. There is a small group that thinks that their take on life, the universe, and everything is the absolutely only right way to think forever and ever amen. They are enamored with the sound of their own voice and never actually engage in dialogue, just drown out intelligent conversation with their navel gazing (how’s that for some mixed-up metaphors). Christian or atheist, it doesn’t matter, I really don’t have the patience for it.

And I don’t have the time for games of online “Taboo.” You know the game where you can’t say certain words or else you get buzzed out and eliminated. That’s what some of these dialogues are like. So many of the atheists have the a priori assumption that all forms of faith are just stupid and utterly unreasonable (of course ignoring the multitude of ways they make use of faith…). So when a Christian starts discussing his faith, they freak out, pull out the buzz, point the finger and say “see you talked about faith and not just reason (by which they mean science), you’re out.” my response – of course I’m going to talk about faith when I talk about my faith – that’s a freaking no-brainer so just get over it! But of course that never happens which is why I really don’t engage in those dialogues much anymore. It boils down to the fact that the biggest gap between us is not the atheism/theism divide but the modern/postmodern divide. I find the concept of scientific objective knowledge just as far-fetched as they find belief in God.

Anyway, just some random thoughts spilling out of my head as it tries to cope with a lot of other crap right now. If you’re up for dialogue and learning from others, go check out Mike’s posts.

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Lord’s Army

Posted on May 22, 2007July 8, 2025

This is disturbing. A Liberty University freshman was arrested for plotting to detonate homemade bombs apparently to stop potential protesters from disrupting Jerry Falwell’s funeral. (read more here). For me, this just epitomizes the culture of fear that the conservative right-wing propagates. The idea that there is some vast conspiracy out there that is out to destroy truth, justice, and the American Way (i.e. Christianity as they know it).

I don’t deny that there may have been protesters at Falwell’s funeral or that there were a lot of us that really didn’t like him. Or that intended protesters included the Westboro Baptist cult who were pissed that Falwell didn’t hate gays enough. And I know that this is just one kid with his own issues. But when you’re fed on the language of “taking back our country for God,” defending the faith, and being part of the Lord’s Army (yes sir) it’s going to eventually get through. Promote violence (however metaphorically intended) and it will beget violence.

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Captain Kirk on the Church

Posted on May 21, 2007July 8, 2025


In Star Trek VI: The Undiscovered Country Captain James T. Kirk stands trial before the Klingons for his ships unprovoked attack on the Klingons and subsequent boarding of their ship and murder of the High Chancellor. While Kirk denies any involvement (it is all a set-up to sabotage peace talks) he is convicted because as Captain he is responsible for the actions of his crew (regardless of his knowledge thereof).

My apologies to those uninitiated into the Star Trek universe, but that scene came to mind the other day in a discussion about church planting and the nature of the church. Church planters are often viewed as the captain of a ship – the entire responsibility rests on them. Of course a ship’s crew has their jobs that actually keep the thing moving, but there still is a captain on whom the responsibility rests. Whether the ship sinks or floats is on the captain. Even if the whole crew mutinies, it is still the captain’s fault.

Even in the Emerging Church/Missional mindset I still see that attitude applied to church planting. Granted that may be because most emerging/missional church plants are really just seeker churches that want to be trendy and actually talk about “the poor” every once in awhile. But its still the issue. The wellbeing of the church rests on the pastor and the success (read high numbers of people and money) of the church is something the pastor must singlehandedly accomplish. (of course this is sooo not an issue in our church plant).

Anyway, I personally think that whole concept is stupid. (how’s that for a thoughtful perspective)

If we are the body as the church, a community that has come together for a common purpose it seems kinda messed up for the “captain” to take all the glory or all the blame. I know I’m “low church” and so am not a fan of hierarchy. I don’t buy the whole pastor as spiritual head that must be submitted to thing. We talk often at church of it being a road trip that we are all taking together, but it still seems like the captain/crew mentality is the dominant paradigm. Not that I promote anarchy or some spiffy organic arcadian model (read- where nothing ever happens because we are all waiting for it to happen organically). I’m just hoping to find a balance somehow. Maybe its just me or perhaps there might be a whole lot more re-imagining of church needed before perceptions change.

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Cry Havoc and Let Slip the Dogs of War

Posted on May 21, 2007July 8, 2025

A recent study being released states that military veterans are more than twice as likely to be in prison for sex crimes than are people without military experience. While veterans are less likely to be incarcerated in the first place, about a quarter of those sentences are for sex crimes against women are children. The article then claims that researchers are at a lose to understand why.

As soon as I read about these findings, I was reminded of the conversation of an Afgani woman I overhead where she discussed the American military’s behavior in Afghanistan (read my blog post about it here). Another incident of cruel and senseless violence inflicted on a child.

And they really wonder why this is an issue?

When you take a group of people, mostly men, and teach them through intense indoctrination to objectify the Other of course stuff like this will happen. It takes seeing the Iraqis or Afganis as “the enemy” and not as real people in order to be able to kill them. If the soldiers didn’t objectify others and instead saw that they were mothers, fathers, lovers, teachers, grandparents, and someone’s child their ability to kill them would be compromised. They must be taught not to care, not to see the human face, and not to see life from the perspective of that other person. Alfie Kohn actually addresses this issue in his book Unconditional Parenting –

People who can – and do – think about how others experience the world are more likely to reach out and help those people – or, at a minimum, are less likely to harm them. Kafka once described war as a “monstrous failure of imagination”. In order to kill, one must cease to see individual human beings and instead reduce them to abstractions such as “the enemy”. One must fail to realize that each person underneath our bombs is the center of his universe just as you are the center of yours: He gets the flu, worries about his aged mother, likes sweets, falls in love – even though he lives half a world away and speaks a different language. To see things from his point of view is to recognize all the particulars that make him human, and ultimately it is to understand that his life is no less valuable than yours. Even in popular entertainments, we’re not shown the bad guys at home with their children. One can cheer the death only of a caricature, not of a three-dimensional person.

Less dramatically, many of the social problems we encounter on a daily basis can be understood as a failure of perspective taking. People who litter, or block traffic by double-parking, or rip pages out of library books, seem to be locked into themselves, unable or unwilling to imagine how others will have to look at their garbage, or maneuver their cars around them, or fail to find a chapter they need.

And so while it pains me to read about it, I am not surprised that those who are taught to objectify others in order to kill them retain that mindset and apply it to other aspects of life. Combine the idea that women and children aren’t “real people” with real feeling and lives but are instead seen as objects to be used with the military insistence of might makes right and one is left with conditions ripe for abuse. As this study shows that objectification of others and violent imposition of power over them is a sad reality.

What saddens me even more is that most people will assume that the solution to this problem is just to apply more of the same – have the bigger more powerful government impose harsher punishments on offenders. There will be no questioning of the military or their need to murder (that wouldn’t be patriotic now would it?) I seriously doubt that lessons in perspective taking will ever catch on in our society, much less our military. So instead of being understood and appreciated as a person, those of us who have faced objectification must continue to live in fear.

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Randomness

Posted on May 18, 2007July 8, 2025

Too crazy at the moment to actually think… so I’m resorting to random blog stuff –

First the meme from Mike. Here’s how it works –

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open it to page 161.
3. Find the fifth full sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence along with these instructions.
5. Don’t search around and look for the coolest book you can find. Do what’s actually next to you.

My answer after realizing that the first 6 books I grabbed either didn’t have 161 pages or didn’t have 5 sentences on page 161. This is from the third book down my to read stack –

Even in these biblical accounts, which were obviously written to demean and debase her actions, the description revealed that she took part in the sexual customs of her own free will and that she viewed them not as an obligatory or compulsory duty but as pleasant occasion, rather like festive parties.

Hmm. Interesting. Thats from a discussion of Hosea and Gomer from When God was a Woman by Merlin Stone.

Then I found this from Brother Maynard

Which Star Wars character am I?

You scored as Leia Organa. A princess who uses her political powers to help the rebel alliance. You are calm and cool no matter the situation and always willing to fight for your beliefs. Now if only you could get those cinnamon buns off your head.

Leia Organa
88%
Yoda
75%
Obi-Wan Kenobi
63%
Anakin Skywalker/Darth Vader
63%
Luke Skywalker
56%
Darth Maul
50%
Padme Amidala
50%
Palpatine
50%
Boba Fett
25%
Han Solo
19%

Which Star Wars character would you be? (pics)
created with QuizFarm.

Fitting I think. (but of course Mara Jade wasn’t on this list…)

And on the topic of Princess Leia – let me introduce you to the Miss Entertainment Pagaent In their words – This “is the beauty pageant for the twenty-first century. No more sleazy judges. No more crusty old men serenading the winner. No more Donald Trump. Only you can crown Miss Entertainment!

In our pageant’s first round, you will vote for the hottest woman in the worlds of television, movies, video games, and comics. In our second and final round, you’ll choose Miss Entertainment from amongst the four category winners from round one. Round one is underway and twenty lovely contestants are vying for your vote.”

But how do I choose between Princess Leia and Eowyn???? At ant rate the promo videos for each contestant were fun to watch…

Enjoy the random fun.

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Ordinary Attempts to Change the World

Posted on May 18, 2007July 8, 2025

So through following some random links, I’ve discovered some rather fun blogs that are all about changing the world.

green LA girl – the adventures of trying to live justly in LA. I enjoy all the stories of environmentally friendly practices. She reviews companies and coffee shops in her attempts to discover how to exist without harming the world and other people. Its fun to read and a fantastic resource. She does all the research on where to find organic fairly traded items (you can get fairly traded underwear???). Anyway I highly recommend you check it out.

Then I discovered Change Everything a group site for people in Vancouver, Victoria and the Lower Mainland who want to change themselves, their communities or their world. I enjoy reading the blogs about the everyday attempts people are making to try to make this world a better place. My favorite so far is EnviroWoman’s Living Plastic Free in 2007 journal. She is chronicling her attempt to bring no new plastic into her life for one year. The writing is witty and I don’t think I’ve enjoyed reading about trash this much ever. (check out her entry about having to give up her love affair with frozen pizza). I’m discovering some random facts as well – did you know that the insides of Pepsi cans are coated with plastic (apparently its so acidic that it would eat through the can otherwise)? It made me realize how just about everything I buy has plastic in it. Not only does that do a lot to hurt the environment (in production as well as landfill junk) but the reports of toxins and carcinogens related to plastics just keep coming in. So I see the rationale behind this project, but the first thing I thought after I really started evaluating my plastic consumption was – “wow, she must not have kids.” Everything for kids is made of plastic (is it even possible to find non-plastic sippy cups?). I honestly don’t know how anyone with kids could ever do something like this, but I do admire her attempt.

If you can’t tell, I like stories. Stories of people out here actually doing stuff to change the world. The more everyday and ordinary, the more helpful I am finding it.

So does anyone else have stories they can share? Everyday ways you (or someone you know) have deliberately changed the way you live in order to make this world a better place?

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